Sunday, September 7, 2008

Being Still Together

About seven years ago, by way of example, Natalie Bauman reminded me what life, family, and friendships are truly about.  While these are not my words, below are the lyrics to a song I love ~ written by Sarah Groves.  Every time I hear it, I think of days when I received a phone call or an email from Natalie inviting a few of us to come by her house any time for some homemade soup.  She would be home all evening, and we were invited to stop by whenever was convenient for us and to stay for as little or as long as we chose.  I'm not sure what put this song on my mind today.  Maybe the passing of my Aunt Barbara.  Maybe because I'm missing my family in Cincinnati today.  Maybe it's that I'm taking my first day in weeks to stop and simply enjoy a lazy sunny day in the park.  Regardless, I hope these words cause your heart and mind to wander as well ...

I am long on staying
I am slow to leave
Especially when it comes to you my friend
You have taught me to slow down
And to prop up my feet
It's the fine art of being who I am

And I can't figure out
Why you want me around
I'm not the smartest person I have ever met
But somehow that doesn't matter
No it never really mattered to you at all

And at the risk of wearing out my welcome
At the risk of self-discovery
I'll take every moment
And every minute that you'll give me.

And I can think of a time when
families all lived together
Four generations in one house
And the table was full of good food
And friends and neighbors
But that's not how we like it now

Cause if you sit at home you're a loser
Couldn't you find anything better to do
Well no I couldn't think of one thing
I would rather waste my time on
than sitting here with you

And I wish all the people I love the most
Could gather in one place
And know each other and love each other well

And I wish we could all go camping
And lay beneath the stars
And have nothing to do and stories to tell
We'd sit around the campfire
And we'd make each other laugh remembering when
You're the first one I'm inviting
Always know that you're my friend

And at the risk of wearing out my welcome
At the risk of self-discovery
I'll take every moment
And every minute that you'll give me

Monday, September 1, 2008

To answer your question...

I've received numerous emails inquiring when I'm going to post more of my writing (such as my second post on this blog).  The original plan was to include many of my writings, however, I learned that anything I post online is considered 'published' and therefore I am not able to publish separately.  And after seven years, I'm finally writing that book on my sabbatical.  So I'm limited to what I can post, and my limited time for writing is dedicated to my book rather than new material.  In the meantime, I'll try to ensure posts are of interesting & various 'wanderings.'

Friday, August 8, 2008

Summertime Fun

Everyone seems to be in the 'end of summer' rush to squeeze in as much outdoor fun as possible.  I am not the exception.  So as I go about tackling as much fun as possible over the next month, I think about all of my adventures thus far ...

(names have been omitted to protect the guilty)

- the 'Great Flood of 2008' ~ we're starting to smile about it already
- Tetherball Champions!  
- those pesky non-pests, in more ways than one
- our near arrest!  (darn ... it remains on my life 'will do' list :)
- bullets dodged, whewsy
- roadtrip through...Pittsburgh??  conversion rate of brother to boy: 1:1   (ahh, the lengths we go to for our girlfriends :)
- lots of babies ~ miss petite's pending arrival, dancing baby miranda
- Broadway...lots & lots of Broadway!
- mourning the closing of laser tag :(
- cycling the city
- cervesas, vino & dancing!
- caving with "the nicest people in the world!"
- beach, beach, & still more beach ... 


Thursday, July 3, 2008

Catching Grief

It seems many have interpreted my last entry as my being unhappy with New York City, or unhappy with my friends.  Neither could be further from the truth!

First, I have been blessed with an amazing group of friends in NYC.  For the first time in my life, my daily circle of friends has more women than men.  And they are amazing women who bring so much to my life.  In my previous email I was making a general reference to conversations that go on around me.  The friends I am with on a weekly basis most definitely provide the diversity of thought I need.  In fact, they provide it in a very fresh way for me as they have only moved to the US within the last two years from a few different countries.  Hearing their perspective definitely grows my mind in ways that other friends cannot as they have not lived in the US for a number of years.  

I have always said that "everyone and every place has something to offer," and have always had great difficulty comprehending how someone can think otherwise.  A few friends in Cincinnati, Caracas, Rome, Geneva, et al, have made comments of their respective city being a terrible place to live.  My perspective is, sure, it may not be New York City, South Beach Miami, or Alaska, but there is plenty to experience and adventures to be had everywhere!  

... in such situations, I challenge each of us that maybe it's not the place that needs to expand but rather the point of view?

So now, New York City.

I love New York City!

I love the diversity, the many cultures and subcultures, and the sheer energy you feel when you walk out your door.  But come on, no one place (nor one person) is completely void of imperfections.  And the one that has caught me by surprise in New York City is people "tend to" stay in homogeneous circles.

I ponder why, in a city so full of diversity, would one not take full advantage of the accessibility of diversities and explore?  

Fear?  Safety?  Ease?  Indifference?

Regardless of reason, the very idea of living in such a tightly drawn box goes against my very being. 

I don't ever want to miss out on that much life!


Thursday, May 29, 2008

Diversity of Thought, in New York City?

New York City.  Probably the most diverse city on the earth.  One would think that deep, intellectual conversations with diverse thinking is something that happens regularly.  I have found that not to be the case. 

Where are the conversations amongst friends where voices raise and debating words increase in speed so quickly that on-lookers are confused as to whether a fight will break out or wine glasses will be raised in toast?  Where are the conversations that have me going straight to amazon.com so I may further research points raised by those around the table and broaden my own thinking?  Where are those individuals who can bring global thinking to the table and actually challenge my mind?

Where is the diversity of thought?

Oh yes, I've met several people here with whom I can get into debating conversations that make me think.  But what are they making me think about?  Most of the time I find myself wondering how someone their age can be stuck in such a parochial mentality, circular thinking, or such illogical and irrational thought processes.  And, I'm meeting so many people who treat sound bites as data points.  The strange thing is that these aren't uneducated individuals.  They are highly schooled and work for some of the top companies.  So what is causing the limitations?

From where I'm standing, it seems to be a combination of lacking a broad world view and living in New York City.

Sure, many work on Wall Street or a Fortune 100 company.  Many have attended the best schools in the US.  But have they traveled the world and experienced other cultures?  Are their circle of friends diverse enough to challenge their thinking? 

And living in New York City seems to automatically shift priorities.  Fashion trends and the drama of celebrities' lives seem to trump what is happening to the people in third world countries and how our foreign policies play out in other parts of the world.  

Or, to be fair (you all knew this was coming)...

Could it be that after working & being in the NYC rat race all day that we turn to mindless entertainment to lighten things up for ourselves?  

I know I promised this wouldn't be a blog of whining, but I just returned from dinner at a friend's and it was only one of a few conversations I've had since moving to NYC two years ago that was actually thought-provoking and broadened my thinking.  It was delightful!

Please don't get me wrong, I love New York!  I love my friends!  I love the diversity of the city!  On this regard, I just expected something different from New York City.

So, blast Cincinnati all you want, but conversations which challenge your thinking with diverse views from various ends of the earth happen almost daily.

I miss that from my community.

So, come on NYC, let's step it up a bit!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

oh how the water flows
as life doth pass us by
into our hearts
the love, too, flows
carries us
shelters us
steadies life's rocky ride

oh the journey is a wondrous one
full of hopes and turns
steady us
rock us
life lessons sometimes relearned

as the water flows
as the love grows
we reach out to each other
carry you
steady you
enjoy life's wondrous ride
~ September 27, 2005
   Rosario Beach, Deception Pass
   Whidbey Island, WA

  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *

the best sound is one I n'er hear often

from where does she come?
who encourages her to travel such distance?
what inspires her to journey so?
the simple joy of delivering pleasure

her gift a constant lapping
the delight she brings most beautiful
 yet often noticed not at all
what soul could not notice?
what awakening must occur?

this soul yearns for the constancy of her.
anxious journeys to meet her

from where doth she come?
 i do not know
our souls journey to find each other
alas, she is always waiting my arrival
her gift extended for my embrace
and i, i embrace her gift always
never wanting the journey return
~ September 28, 2005
   Langley, WA

Sunday, April 20, 2008

12 Year Anniversary for a Heart Transplant Recipient

I just read the April 2008 Change of Heart newsletter. Change of Heart is a support group for heart transplant recipients (see link on the right to go to their website). On April 26, 1996, my father had a successful heart transplant. A self-less and loving gift to him, and to my entire family.

I am so proud of my father and how he gives back. He is Chaplain of the Heart Transplant Unit at University of Cincinnati Hospital; until only recently, he served for many years as President of Change of Heart; he is very involved with patients waiting for heart transplants by supporting and counseling them, & their families, as well as recipients; he assists in fundraising and obtaining sponsors for Change of Heart; and is an advocate for waiting patients and recipients to the transplant unit. People reach out to him from all over the US for his counsel.

I am also so very proud of my mother who supports my father, is extremely active in my father's servicing of others, and is also very active in supporting patients, recipients, and their families. It takes a very special, and very strong, person to walk the transplant and recipient journey with someone. My mother is an angel.

Dad was asked to write his profile and it was shared in the newsletter. In honor of his 'birthday', I'd like to share it with you...

"On August 4, 1933, I became the sixth son of Dolphus and Hazel Dunigan Burke who lived in a small coal mining town at the head of Cabin Creek called Wevaco, WV, about 30 miles south of Charleston, WV. It was one of the worst years of The Great Depression. My mother said I was her five dollar baby, two for doctor and three for material to make diapers for me.

Mom and Dad later had four more children for a total of eight boys and two girls. In 1944, my parents bought a 164 acre farm in Southern Ohio near Athens, OH. In September of that year, we moved there and I later learned that the reason they bought the farm was that they did not want any of their children working in the coal mines.

It was after we moved to Ohio that I met a remarkable man and neighbor, John Sheppard, who was 79 years of age. As I remember the story, his parents left the Athens, OH area and headed west. John become an orphan on the Oregon Trail, and was put in an orphanage in Oregon. As a young teenager, he ran away and rode a bicycle from Oregon back to Ohio. The bike was the kind that had a very large front wheel and a small rear wheel.

Later, John went to Alaska to dig gold around Dawson Creek in the Yukon Territory. I later found John listed in the "1896-1899 Family Chronicle -- Alaska-Yukon Gold Rush Participants." John returned to Ohio a wealthy man. He married, bought large farms and planted an apple orchard. (I include John in this profile because he played such a great role in my life as a young boy and as a teenager.)

From the year 1944 til 1952, I worked for John as a neighbor along side of grown man who were being paid. However, I was never paid for my efforts. I would complain to Mom and Dad, but their answer was always "Son, we are John's neighbor and neighbors help one another." Dad would then add, "it will come back to you."

In spring of 1951, I was driving John to the city of Athens when he asked me if I'd like to have 75 acres of brush. I told him yes I would, but he knew I didn't have any money to purchase the land. John then slapped me on the leg and said, "Son, it's yours. Don't tell anyone except your Mom and Dad." I then remembered what Dad had said -- "it will come back to you." Little did I know what John had planned for me the last six years. On the day of title transfer I was working for John without pay.

As I write this, I am sitting in my cabin looking out across the deck into the woods. I come here to relax, write, meditate, hunt, and visit family and friends. My family and I built this five room cabin in 1974 and it is setting on the above mentioned 75 acres.

I came to Cincinnati in 1952, went to work for Procter & Gamble, and enlisted in the Navy in 1953. After basic training and two different aviation schools, I was assigned to an Experimental Squadron VX3 in New Jersey, just outside Atlantic City. While there in 1955, I had the privilege of flying in the right seat of an AD5 plane and on a return trip from Rhode Island, the pilot asked if I'd like to have some fun. I said I would.

Well, we flew around the Empire State Building three times. I could see people standing at the windows. At the time, the pilot and I did not know that in 1945 a B-52 Bomber had crashed into the Empire State Building killing several people and caused a lot of damage to the building.

Little did I know that a year later I would be flying in the B-52 Bomber (this is the plane that Jimmy Doolittle flew to invade Japan at the beginning of WWII). Some of our pilots were enlisted men as well. This was after the Korean War and there was a shortage of pilots and flight crews. I was discharged in March, 1957. I returned to work for P&G.

I met Rosemary in 1959 and we were married on July 2, 1960. God blessed us with five children -- four boys and a girl.

In 1969, Rosemary and I went to visit my brother, Hebron, and his wife, Maxine, and their family. Hebron and I went fishing. Maxine took Rosemary and the kids shopping. They shopped in antique shops and Maxine got Rosemary interested in antiques. When I returned and we came back to Cincinnati, Rosemary made me take her to some antique shops. So, I too, came down with the "fever"!

As I tend to do, I went "all the way" into it. I went to auctioneer school in Indiana after working all day at P&G. After getting my license, we started conducting auctions, mostly antique. It was a family business. After my health began to fail, I slowed down on the auctioneering part. It was a lot of physical work. Today I still buy and sell antiques and collect some.

After my parents passed, I became interested in stories they had told me about our ancestors. I have traced my ancestors back to the colonies of Virginia and Maryland, and to the countries of Ireland and England. I have printed a genealogy book about the Burke, Dunigan and Marcum families.

Rosemary and I have made several trips to Virginia, Kentucky and other places searching cemeteries, court houses, and libraries for information. I now have 16 chapters written in a book about my family, which started before my heart transplant. I hope to finish it this year at my cabin, while supervising timber cutting of my 75 acres.

I lost my father, mother, and three brothers to heart problems. I began having heart problems in my mid-forties. On April 26, 1996, I was blessed with a heart from a donor from Columbus, Ohio. Rosemary and I attended our first Change of Heart meeting in 1996, and I began serving as chaplain. I served as President for five years, and Rosemary has been serving as Treasurer for the last nine years.

Remember to do good for others for "it will come back to you." God is good, all the time."
~ written by Charles Donald Burke